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Hello everyone,

     How are you? Are you doing well? I sure hope that you are! Well, it's a lovely spring day, and I thought that I'd get around to writing a new journal entry. It's certainly been a long while since I wrote a decent one, hasn't it?   I wish that I had some spectacular news to share about my life or in regards to my artwork in general, but alas, it seems that things have been rather uneventful as of late.   

     As the title of this journal entry suggests, at around this time, normally I would be preparing for the Otakon anime convention that will be held this summer, [link] sadly, as of this writing, I have yet to hear back in regards to table selection, which concerns me greatly.....  I am aware that for the past few years that the selection process for Artist Alley has been done with a kind of "lottery system," basically amounting to luck in regards to securing a table, as opposed to a first come first serve basis, as it was done in previous years. I also understand that due to the fact that this is such a large event, that those in charge want it to be fair for everyone wishing to participate.  Though these are all sound reasons for doing what they do, I must say that I will be quite saddened if I am not selected this year.  Given that I have been a part of the Artist Alley for quite a number of years now, I often greatly look forward to this event.  And it isn't just because I have the chance to sell and display my work, but also because I often look forward to meeting people who approach my booth; such as many of you here on Deviantart! I know that there is still time before the convention, and the information distributed did claim that selection would be done in waves, so maybe there is still a chance that I will be chosen at a later time.  But I suppose I should also prepare myself for that not being the case....

       A part of me also wonders if maybe this is a sign that I need to expand into new territory in regards to my art, which I've talked about many *many* times in the past.  And yet, though I talk about it often enough, I usually find myself hesitant to follow through, for whatever reason.....  I don't know if its fear of the unknown that's holding me back, fear of failure, or the worry of losing the love that I feel for the work that I do now.  I've even been told that perhaps these are only excuses.  At this point, however, I don't quite know how I feel regarding all of this.....

      Despite the confusion, I have thought about trying some new things.  I've mentioned the possibility of commissions in a recent poll, which I'm still currently debating, and I still haven't given up on the notion of trying my hand in fantasy art, which would most likely be posted on my other Deviantart account,  [link]

     I've also thought about trying more pencil related works, given that I greatly enjoyed the process of a recent drawing, a gift for my friend as seen here.  

     In my younger days, I would often do drawings done solely in pencil, and as much as I love painting, I have missed creating works like these:   and .  

    Another part of me has wanted to try my hand at more realistic looking work, as I did enjoy creating some in the more recent past, as seen here: and .

     I've considered recreating some original characters that I'd thought up once upon a time.  And I've even thought about doing completely random things such modernizing characters from my childhood; a revamp of 1980s cartoons such as Jem and the Holograms or Saban's Adventures of the Little Mermaid just to name a few.  And.... I also realize in stating that, that I've also indicated my approximate age, haven't I....? In all seriousness, I guess that's yet another thing that I often give myself a hard time about; that I most certainly shouldn't be this aimless at this stage in my life. <sigh>.....

      Maybe I just need to try many different things until I find something that I do enjoy doing.  This has been suggested to me on numerous occasions by those closest to me as well, but for the reasons stated above, and again, for reasons that I'm not entirely certain of, I wasn't able to do so.  Maybe now is the time?  I'm not quite sure.....  But I do know that I am in dire need of a change!  

       I apologize if this journal is rather sombre in terms of tone.  But these are things that have been on my mind as of late.  Even if I do try some of the things that I've mentioned here, that doesn't mean that I won't create works like I have been.  For better or worse, creating works related to things that I love such as Yu-Gi-Oh, Sailor Moon and so forth, has always always been what I've enjoyed doing the most.  Some could argue that that is what's held me back; my deep devotion to my interests, but I think the key to figuring this all out IS doing work that I love.  Maybe I just need to see what else I can learn to love doing, aside from what I've done all this time.  I don't know.....

      On a lighter note, I still hope to finish my annual Sailor Moon/Yu-Gi-Oh crossover piece soon. I'm currently in the sketching phase of this work so be on the look out for the line art and painting in the near future!

     I also STILL haven't given up on my beloved Yu-Gi-Oh fan ficiton, "Transcending Memories: A Bond Unsealed:  [link] much like the art work that I love, I couldn't leave this writing alone if I tried.  It's such a big part of me that even if I takes forever, I'll still strive to finish it someday.  I've made headway on the next installment, but much of the above has left feeling a bit uninspired lately.  But hey, maybe some of the things I've talked about will spark creativity in this regard as well.  I do often find that creative bursts come at unexpected times and places. I suppose we'll see..... But anyways....

     Well everyone, I thank you very very much for reading this and for your continuous support an encouragement. I know that that is something that I say quite often, but one thing that I have always been able to count on is all of you..... From the watch of this page, to the various favorites that you've given my work over the years, to the wonderfully kind and flattering remarks that you leave regarding my work; for all of this, you have my eternal gratitude.   Take care now, everyone! Wish me luck, ok?  Until next time then!

Lots of Love,
yamigirl21

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